depressingly inadequate
So, I have discovered that I am seriously depressingly inadequate in several areas today.
Area number 1:
This friggin blog! Ok, I have for some time now realized and accepted that I am not a tecnological genius. However, I thought I was at least up to the basic maintenance of a blog. Alas, I am not. If you have visited here in the last week, you have probably noticed all the funky margin issues and that the side stuff (picture, etc) that usually in the upper right was way down in the lower right, and well, all was just funky looking. It's all better now, but I had to sacrifice some article links from an earlier post. Then I wander over to Nikki's blog and see that her link within a post to my blog is just "Cheryl," no http: stuff, nothing. Not fair. I spent ages (at least ten minutes trying to get my blog to do that. I think I got the F.M.V brand blog version or something. sigh.
Area number 2:
Helping people. I have talked to so many people in such difficult circumstances today, and was completely unable to do anything to help them! All I could do was listen and care, but I could do nothing to alleviate their suffering. I couldn't even hug most of them as I was talking to them over the phone. And all of them thanked me for my time, help, concern, and such. I wanted to yell "I didn't do anything! I can't do anything!" Which of course is not true, I can pray. Why is it that asking our All-Powerful Father to intervene feels like little more than nothing sometimes? Is it a lack of faith? I have no touble turning to God in prayer and trusting Him when it is my life I am praying over, but when it's strangers miles away...
So, inadequacy. Not pleasant.
Area number 1:
This friggin blog! Ok, I have for some time now realized and accepted that I am not a tecnological genius. However, I thought I was at least up to the basic maintenance of a blog. Alas, I am not. If you have visited here in the last week, you have probably noticed all the funky margin issues and that the side stuff (picture, etc) that usually in the upper right was way down in the lower right, and well, all was just funky looking. It's all better now, but I had to sacrifice some article links from an earlier post. Then I wander over to Nikki's blog and see that her link within a post to my blog is just "Cheryl," no http: stuff, nothing. Not fair. I spent ages (at least ten minutes trying to get my blog to do that. I think I got the F.M.V brand blog version or something. sigh.
Area number 2:
Helping people. I have talked to so many people in such difficult circumstances today, and was completely unable to do anything to help them! All I could do was listen and care, but I could do nothing to alleviate their suffering. I couldn't even hug most of them as I was talking to them over the phone. And all of them thanked me for my time, help, concern, and such. I wanted to yell "I didn't do anything! I can't do anything!" Which of course is not true, I can pray. Why is it that asking our All-Powerful Father to intervene feels like little more than nothing sometimes? Is it a lack of faith? I have no touble turning to God in prayer and trusting Him when it is my life I am praying over, but when it's strangers miles away...
So, inadequacy. Not pleasant.
posted by cheryl @ 3:16 PM
2 Comments:
At 5:18 PM,
Donna said…
Inadequacy... part of my motivation for beginning the counseling track at seminary was to overcome this in helping others. However, I find that the more I learn the more my feelings of inadequacy grow. I'm so glad that God knows our shortcomings and weaknesses, and what is more is that He has promised that His strength is perfected in it (2 Corithians 12:7-10).
Just know that you WERE adequate to make me smile with your banana post (I discovered this last year at seminary as well-- yay for ingenuity!!).
At 6:27 PM,
Nick Nye said…
well...aren't we all! It's grace that carries us to the Cross!
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