self centered

I've been in this crazy funk for several weeks. No details in a public forum, but, well, I've mostly just been very down on myself and ovewhelmed by a number of issues that are always there, but sometimes more overwhelming than others.

I hate times like that. I hate feeling overwhelmed and trapped. When what has me down is me, with all my weaknesses and neuroses, then I'm stuck, since the one person I can't escape is me.

So finally I realized over the weekend that the problem is that I'm focussing on me, I'm totally self-centered! There are other problems, I'm just messed up in general, really, but what I forget is that that doesn't matter! Because that messed up person that drives me nuts has died/is dying in Christ. If I focus on my issues and trying to fix them, then of course I'm going to get down. But I can focus instead on Christ in whom my life now is, and find peace and joy. He defeated sin and death, he can handle the things that overwhelm me. When I focus on those old weaknesses of mine, they appear to be huge, I loose perspective and start to wonder if God can handle them. Silliness. When I focus on him, I not only stop doubting if he can handle them, I remember, it doesn't matter that much really whether I'm messed up or not, cause I'll leave it behind soon enough. Thank God!